Finding Free

I feel a switch turn off,

and boom - I'm done.

Where does the deepest seed come from?

When I get so much,

a little feels like nothing,

though, tireless hits blow the circuit.

A simple balance is aware, yet there is a constant 

self inflicted fear of the unknown,

Fore every moment is understood as a lesson.

Though, some lessons are subliminal and stored behind shadows.

Constant open heart, 

letting all of the worlds dirty hands reach in,

washing away their pain with my tears.

As I drown their fears.

I Luxuriate in electrifying.

Many falling colors - from my pillow tongue.

Lips let loose, pours out the rainbow.

Connections to elements are free-falling,

At peace with a piece of the pie,

under four walls covered in photos from the past.

Learning how to allow,

and bring whats within,

out.

To share our colors with the world.

Let the Doomsday down

and bring up all frowns, from all around.

Significant others will find their path

into the puzzle meant to piece.

Glued to the big screen.

A flash of lights.

Laughs.

Fun,

Freedom...

WHAT IS YOUR CHINESE ZODIAC?

This year _2013_ is the year of the Water (black) Snake...

MY SIGN IS THE EARTH SNAKE.....

Earth Snake Chinese Zodiac

If you're an Earth Snake, you're the warmest Snake of all! Your manner is easygoing, honest, considerate, and quite charming.
You have a practical, logical mind. Earth Snakes are often very successful in financial matters. You arc sensible, hardworking, and reliable. Taking risks is not your natural way of doing things. You prefer a steadier, more systematic approach. With sustained effort and by calculating your moves ahead of time, you can succeed in building a stable and comfortable life. Like all Snakes, you derive much pleasure from possessing beautiful material things.

Once you've made up your mind about someone or something, you rarely change your opinion because you've given the matter very careful thought. Actually, you are quite a forward-thinker and can predict the future with a fair bit of accuracy based on your observations. Trust your excellent hunches and you can satisfy your ambitions.

People gravitate to you because you naturally try to form a good opinion of everyone. Group activities, or memberships in social or sport clubs, suit your |convivial, sociable nature. Your friends particularly appreciate the loyalty and support you readily offer. A basic trust in others and yourself can guarantee easy relationships and a peaceful, happy existence.

TO FIND YOUR SIGN-

Your Chinese Zodiac and Element

Passing Hours.....

Do you ever lay in bed awake all night just wishing for the hours to pass? - For the memories and thoughts to quiet? - Wonder - Anxiety - Hypotheses' - Doubt - Fury - Scared Excitement - Anxious for what's next.... How can this be used? Where can I deflate this energy? Usually bright with light, emanating glory or directional optimism, but the truth is: The brightest light shines from the darkest places.... Dimensional and true to the human spirit. Not negative. Practical and mutual consensus to the muti-faceted psyche.....


DRIP.
Cheek smear.
DRIP.
Drop off the lip of my bottom lid.  Black.
DRIP.
Heavy.  Air thin.  Breath deep.  Heart flattened.  Light burning.  High threshold for pleasure resistance. Unkept dreams fleeing.  Male dominance ringing in my canal between both ears.  Ding.  Dong.
DRIP.
Eyes boggle back and forth.  Fast crash.  No return.  Totaled.
DRIP.
Rain. Stiff feet emerged beneath my own rippled puddle. Cold. Rainbow glow gone grey.  Flash.  Lightning.  Still awake.  Jaded smile.  Attempt to get back.
DRIP.
DRIP.
Smear.  Black.  Snake.  Slither.  Rattle.
DRIP....

Infinite Inspiration

Infinite Inspiration

   Living in the Law of Attraction is not something to snicker at. Our minds can lock the doors of inspiration due to a time we once failed. Eeek- no one likes that word! Failure, something to scare your subconscious into hiding the key and letting the hard rusted edges of the doors grow mold. Wow, sounds like something diseased may live inside. A permanent solution to a temporary problem. A suicide of sorts. The block to opening that door and cleaning out the room is caused by various instances. All usually fall under the category of fear and failure. We don't know anything as children until we learn it. Fear and failure are learned by the belief that something you say or do agrees with your surroundings. Not usually the case. We all have different opinions based on our prior circumstances, usually dating back to a startling mystical lifetime we only have memories of, childhood. It doesn't matter if we can remember what happened to cake on the mold in that door. The door to our freedom. It matters to know there is an existence we surrender to that is holding the general population back from their dreams. 

      It is all in us. The power to do whatever we desire. There is nothing holding any of us back, except for that damn door! How do we fix this? EASY BREEZY BABY! Awareness! Hmmm..... Being aware of the fact that you may have a closet sitting in your gut too. It can be a pink midget door or a green giant door. Of course some are easier to open, but it's all possible. I repeat: IT IS ALL POSSIBLE!

     Something we may perceive as failure is actually insecurity. Who freaking cares if you don't get the role you auditioned for? It's not about the role, it's about what you received in that moment. It was a lesson, and another step in the right direction. The arrow pointing towards awareness! Let's get in the dreamy convertible car, drive down the winding hills, and let the breeze fill our wings. Fly out of the car and soar to the first cleaning supply store. Trinkle bleach on the hinges and open that door!

     Be happy you showed up, be happy you woke up today, be happy you have an opportunity to learn even if it doesn't turn out the way you envision. Try going in without expectation and allow your days to surprise you. Certainly we need to pave our own path, BUT this doesn't mean we know what the path will look like if we haven't already seen it yet! If something doesn't turn out the way you wanted, embrace it, and learn from it. LOVE IT, because it is forming you, your future, and the future of others surrounding you. Love yourself and allow yourself to fly with your higher power. Your heart will lead you...your brain is all intellect and only knows facts from experience. Energy comes from the heart, and energy never lies.

      The Power of Attraction will always bring you what you need and what you focus on. If everything is a lesson and an important one, taken on a positive note, then more positive experiences will come your way. It will happen! FACT. 

I am way too exhausted, i should be asleep. Something says write! So here we go....

Best advice that came through my stream of consiousness today was to allow everything in life to reveal itself to you. In Meditation we can change the way our chemistry works. We can manifest whatever we want and need in this life. If your new to Meditation you must give it time and try not to expect anything from it. How can you try to get somewhere when you really don't have any real control over your future? We can only make this moment the best by accepting it and finding the lesson in it. Everything we are handed is something that we asked for. Sometimes our life lessons are painful and sometimes blissful. In this, we are given the gift of growth. When you sit to meditate just work on one thing and that is to be open to letting in whatever comes. In acting and working on your craft you can't force something to happen. You can't preconceive and idea of what you need to accomplish because something else may come up. Most of the time every situation your in will surprise you. I am babbling i need to sleep! Hopefully I am making sense.

All in all, I am trying to express to you to allow, be grateful, don't analayse and just BE! Thats all you can do, and thats all you should do. In being open to everything, the best will always come. Forcing causes suffering.
Go
Fly
Breathe
Accept
Love
Connect
Don't work, strive
be your best and the best will follow.

If you have an impulse, where is it coming from?
What do you think your subconscious is trying to reveal to you?
Dream!


Sweet Dreams!

Lost and Found

       There are many times in life we feel lost. These feelings will fall away and reoccur along our path throughout our whole lives. This inclination of dropped spirits usually consists of anxiety, possible depression, a feeling of, "I don't no what I am doing or where I am going, I want to HIDE forever." It sounds pretty bad right? Well what changes it? We get an "AHA" moment of discovery and we see where to go next and things eventually smooth out on their own. Having these feelings are healthy and good actually because they usually set you up for a deeper discovery and a more exciting future. 
         This can be used in many parallels but as an example: Whenever I approach a new character I have a freak out moment! I think, "What the hell am I doing, I have no idea why I am doing this, I want to run away and hide from the world!" That is usually because the task at hand has so much variety and has a vast space full of possibility. This load of invisible future is hard to wrap your head around, so panic sets in. It is funny because it happens every time for me and I always end up working it out. 
          The way to solve these problems are to FOCUS on one thing. Something that starts you off to sit on and grow. We need a strong foundation in everything we do or it will fall apart.
         I see people around me going through it all the time and it saddens me to see this struggle. At the same time it is so human, so real, and so pure where it comes from. It is because this person has a heart, its because they care! 
        My best advice if you are in this situation now, or find yourself there in the future. Always know that it isn't always a bad place to be because when you don't know is when you are on the brink of discovery. If you see someone else in this position you should give them a hug and remind them how much they have to offer and just to relax and focus. Nothing gets done in a state of tension.
       Following your heart will always set you along the right path. Confusion is a word we use to block how clear we really are. All the answers are there you just have to let yourself see them. If it doesn't come right away distract yourself in something you love, like painting or yoga. Then relax and say I don't care if I find out. That's when you find it! Its like losing your keys and you look EVERYWHERE the second you give up, you see they were in your hand the whole time. :)
       Feeling lost is okay as long as you can allow yourself to be found.

Habits can kill you.....

So I am taking it to an extreme when I say habits can kill you, but they can lead your brain in to a dying state. 

In life as we grow up we are CONSTANTLY learning new things every second. Our brain is like a sponge as a child (So they say) The brain doesn't stop absorbing knowledge because it is full, or incapable of doing so. The brain can slow down as we age because the MUSCLE is getting weak.  For example: During physical exercise you will notice when your muscles are strong or neglected. OUT OF SHAPE is due to lack of exercise. Same with our brain.

WHY does it get weak you ask? HABIT! We grow and things become "Second Nature." This means we do things without having to think of them out of habit. For instance I am typing right now without looking at the keys because of the habit I have formed. We brush our teeth, our hair, wash our bodies, walk, run, chew, etc. pretty much exactly the same way all the time. We view the same street we walk down everyday as just getting home, but when you walk down a new street do you not find yourself observing it more? When you learn a new language or read a book you are waking up the muscles of the brain. If you move your body in a new way it feels awkward because your brain is like, WOAH WHAT WAS THAT? I've never felt that...! In this theory I believe our brains are used less and less as we get older making it harder to retain knowledge and eventually parts of our brain stop being used all together and  can lead to dementia, Alzheimer's, or just stupidity. THIS DOESN'T mean your stupid though, it is always possible to restrengthen your brain. Just like the going to the gym it is hard to get started but them it becomes a passion, or even a nisesity.

A great way to get your brain flowing is to try something new and DON'T give up if it feels weird and you believe "Oh this isn't for me." Usually when I go to a new dance class and I am not getting the steps it is easy to say I am just not good at that form of dance. NO!! After your body gets it a little it becomes SO much fun! Same with reading, when I was a kid I HATED reading because I was slightly dyslexic and felt stupid. Something in me clicked one day and I decided I am going to read all these books this month. It was hard at first but eventually I was loving it and now I have to say reading is one of my favorite things. It is great absorbing new knowledge and finding new interests. It keeps life exciting and constantly stimulating.

None of what I am saying are PROVEN FACTS, but as I was reading a book from one of the most famous psychologists, Carl Jung, I discovered that he thinks there is never going to be a proven fact 100%. There can be a very good, overworked, estimated answer that we will repeat because it is coming up with an answer we like. Though, this doesn't really mean one day something can't take another form. It is really interesting to me to learn how our brain and thoughts are all determined by our memory. Thinking happens so fast but all it is is our subconscious remembering past experiences. Our past knowledge is settled in to the crevices of our brain from our parents, friends, teachers, strangers, etc. This being the case, we must realize that the same thing we are getting from them they got from their background. It is an ongoing cycle of knowledge passed down from generation to generation and can evolve but will basically take similar form. Having more knowledge will make you better at decision making and "instinct" will kick in from your subconscious mind. This doesn't take away the fact that personal learning experiences don't contribute, because they do 100%. Now I don't believe there will ever be an ANSWER to much of anything, even what I am stating here will never be proven. The awareness Jung brings to broaden the horizons of life are the wonderful possibilities of happiness and hunger for passion.


I went a bit off track from HABITS, but my inspiration behind this blog has come from what I just absorbed. Sharing this information with people will hopefully build up their awareness and strike some interest in finding out more. My hopes are to inspire whoever reads this to go about the world a little differently in subtle changes to help enrich their lives and the lives around them. This life is an ongoing cycle and needs to be explored because if we weren't meant to explore it I don't think it would be explorable in the first place. Hopefully I was able to help at least one person passing on the knowledge someone generously passed on to me.

Take it to the next step- Find out more in your own research
I am reading "The Portable JUNG," by Joseph Campbell. (FASCINATING!)
Try something new!
Change some habits (brush your teeth with opposite hand)
Wake up your brain!

All the works of man have their origin in creative fantasy. What right have we then to depreciate imagination. 
Carl Jung

~I thank Elizabeth for her guidance.