Life works in crazy ways....

               I wanted to blog about how great my experience was on set for the first day of shooting for HBO but things have been so crazy that I almost don't have the energy to type anything. So all in all it was an amazing shoot with very technically difficult blocking, push and pull, etc. I did my thing and got a huge hug from the Show Runner/ Writer and the Director. This is a good sign! That means he liked my work and can write me in more of the show as time goes on. Today was also a really great day! I had a last minute audition. I got the word late last night that I needed to audition for this girl who is a Russian Immigrant Stripper. I went straight to work on a Russian Accent and didn't break it once all the way through to the audition. When I walked in I was the Russian girl. I Told them I was from Russia and they believed me the whole way! I told them this long monologue and in the end they asked me, did this really happen to you? The monologue was about a girl and abuse. I laughed and said no way its just the lines you provided me with but I was talking about something true to me just covering it up with your lines. They asked can you do an american accent! I said of coarse I worked very hard on it. So i did it again with my real voice and after I said you no I don't really have a Russian Accent I was just seeing if I could fool you. All their mouths dropped and they were like wow you can get emotional and have an accent that was amazing we were completely fooled by you. It was great, then they had me do some other scenes and in the end I got the callback for tomorrow! Wooo..... but then family issues come in to play and my day went down hill! I don't want to get too in to it but it is just not a good situation that my family is going through right now and I've been crying pretty much the rest of the night. I went to dance class to try and get my mind off it. It worked a little but the second I got back home, out came the water works again.
       It is wild how life gets really good and everything is great and suddenly BOOM its a wreck in the matter of seconds! I say the harder you fall the higher you bounce according to what your made of. I am so exhausted though right now and can't get in to too much detail. I need to work on getting this monologue off book for my audition again tomorrow and go to bed! My manager wants to bring me to set tonight and I really don't feel up too it. My eyes are all puffy and not sure I want to be around the HBO crew in this condition. We will see I guess. Whatever happens in life is put there to condition us for whats coming next.  Since it just got tough that means there is something really great coming soon! At least I have to think this way otherwise it would be hard to keep marching on. Winston Churchill said "When in hell keep moving!" He is right and thats what we all must do. Luckily as an actress I can use this to be creative in my work. It can be looked at as a gem instead of coal.
     I am not really that spiritual but I pray for things with my family to get better!!!
Hope all is well with everyone and remember: After a Hurricane Comes a Rainbow!
~Alexandra xo